This week I over heard a little girl telling a friend to please play with her because if she didn't then she would be all alone and she did not want to be all alone. I smiled at the innocence of her statement. Then I realized how many of us are just like this little girl? We want others to surround us a large part of our lives.
I confronted this feeling of being alone when I moved away from Laramie to a new town where I knew a few people. It was so exciting to be moving away to a new place I didn't realize I would be starting over. I had made a lot of great friends in Laramie.
You take for granted those friendships when they are right in front of you. You never really appreciated walking into a store and seeing at least 5 people you knew. Now you walk into a store and never see a single person you know and this happens to you all summer. You just do not know anyone. You are alone.
I would long for the friendships I had left behind and wonder if I even mattered anymore. Much like this little girl, I measured my worth by having somone to "play" with. I finally was confronted with this thought 2 days ago and I realized I am NEVER alone!
I call these moments my coconut moments. It is when an invisible coconut falls out of the sky and hits me in the head. I realized that God is always with me. He may not be visible as a human form to me at this point in time, but He is with me. Hebrews 13:5-6 tells that God will never leave us, nor will He forsake us.
We may feel forsaken or left behind by man, but God will be our comfort at all times. He is the best friend we can ask for.
The hardest part about growing up is leaving behind friendships. Even though they are never over, they are never the same. Our relationship with God is consistant though. We can never leave behind our friendship with God through moving from one place to another. He is with us, helping us have the strength to get out of bed every day, go grocery shopping alone, take walks alone, and just be alone in general.
I don't know about anyone else, but I have grown so much from my time alone in Sioux Falls. It has been a great experience to learn to rely on God being my friend when I felt so alone. I rejoice for the friendships God has brought into my life to help grow my walk with Him. I also rejoice in the time I spent alone with Him this summer. It was a great time to focus on the love God displays for me and my family.
One little girl's words will always ring loudly in my heart. I was able to work through being alone. God was able to work on my heart and change me from seeing my being alone as a burden or an avenue for depression, but instead a time to rest in His friendship and love.
